Thursday, 23 April 2015

What Is Your Worth?

I had a constant underlying feeling of unworthiness. I couldn't shake it, I had moments of letting it go where I would realise I was whole and fulfilled as I am during a meditation but when I wasn't meditating the feeling would creep back. I kept trying to find my worthiness in being a mum, in being a house wife, by thinking up ways I could earn money, by growing myself spiritually and even in words from Deepak Chopra:

...The awakening of your awareness is an immeasurable gift you are giving to the world. Even without social interaction, your spiritual awakening uplifts and clears the path for countless others in collective consciousness.
A spiritual life purpose may not seem very impactful, or generous compared to being a surgeon or a teacher, but in fact it fulfills a critical spiritual need in the world, all the more so because it is unseen and undervalued. Think of yourself as the hermit or yogi who quietly brings peace and harmony to her village without anyone knowing.”

Even after realising logically that everything I did was worth something I still felt unworthy so I turned to my guides for some insight. My guides pointed out that the word “worth” is associated with a dollar amount, it's how much I felt I was worth in currency. As a stay at home mum, my partner brings in our income so my contribution in dollars is zero, therefore I put my own worth at nothing, subconsciously of course and hence why I felt so bad! As I thought through this and dragged up my subconscious feelings I noticed that I had felt unworthy or worth nothing, I felt like I didn't deserve set things because they were worth so much and I wasn't worth that much and that I'd been identifying myself with a figure, or lack there of. I felt unworthy of my basic needs because I'd adopted the belief that you need money for those things therefore if you don't earn money you don't deserve them.

I soon awoken to my mistake of thinking my worth came from a dollar amount and decided to even stop using that word toward myself. Even if I were to say I'm worth all the money in the world, I'm still degrading myself because I'm saying money is worth more than I am and my existence! Identifying yourself with money is like identifying yourself with the house you reside in, the car you drive and the stuff you've accumulated, these are not you nor even an extension of you.

We are spiritual beings having a human experience. Money is a number in an account we have which we trade for things. Money is even less than things and I'm comparing myself to it! We can't possibly measure our worthiness because we are divine and to put any measurement on ourselves based on what we be,do or have is mistakenly thinking we are finite. We are immeasurable, infinite consciousness, we are all there is, has been and ever will be. How could we ever think about, even for a second, what we are worth because to say we are worth something is to put that something above us. We are that something, we are the energy in which all things exist so really, it's impossible to even measure up against anything and even if we are measuring, I believe we are worth a lot more than money itself. 

Love and Peace


Sunday, 19 April 2015

Benefits of Self Awareness

Self awareness is realising that you are that which is aware of your thoughts and feelings, not the thoughts and feelings themsevles. As you think, as emotions rise and fall within you, even as you see, hear, taste, smell, touch etc. you may realise that there is an awareness behind the you that is having these experiences. As you think, there are thoughts running through your mind and a part of you who is listening. With this understanding and acknowledgment you can realise you are not your thoughts and feelings but you are the awareness of them and you can then choose the thoughts and feelings you wish to have.

Many people live on auto-pilot believing they are their thoughts, feelings and beliefs but these are an accumulation of energy which you have held onto and identified with. Not who you are. Recently, I was on the phone with a good friend of mine. As we were chatting we had an epiphany. Everything is vibrating at different frequencies to create an illusion of different things of varying densities. Really, when you get down to it, we and everything else in this universe are all made of the same stuff! Atoms, molecules... and 99.999...% “empty space”! Did you know nothing actually touches anything else? Things levitate over one another. Anyway, our epiphany was an analogy, imagine you are a ball of energy and as this ball, you have collected energy over your life in the form of thoughts, feelings, experiences and beliefs and then you have put them with your energy and identified yourself as this accumulation.

One practice I love is to become aware that I am aware of my thoughts and feelings, as thoughts happen I purposely watch them and sense that I'm aware of them. This practice helps me to detach from thoughts and feelings. As my friend and I were chatting, we realised we don't identify ourselves with our sight or what we hear, as we know these are not us, so it seems just as obvious that we are also not our thoughts or our feelings, they are an experience we are having.

Be aware of yourself and you will grow. Here are some benefits of Self Awareness:
  1. You will sense and know your true self.
  2. You will gain more understanding of yourself and why you do what you do.
  3. You will grow because as you witness old thought patterns and beliefs which no longer serve you, they will drop away. These are happening in the background of your thoughts and will continue happening without awareness. As they drop away you will gain a new understanding and your mind will evolve.
  4. You will gain a better understanding of other people. You will give more compassion and less judgment.
  5. Self awareness provides an opportunity to let go of old thoughts as well as emotions.
  6. You will have the ability to choose thoughts and feelings which serve you to be your best self. Unfortunately, without awareness, affirmations or positive words towards ourselves only layer on top of our subconscious negative thoughts and it is our subconscious which causes our automatic thoughts and feelings and motivates our actions.
  7. Self awareness and sensing our true self allows us to relax and de-stress.
  8. You will take action on purpose instead of automatically.

    Peace and Love